1:45pm and I'm still in my jammies. It's one of those days.
Truth be told, I rarely need an excuse to stay in my pj's, but today I received news that left me stunned and teary. Change is a comin' and I'm trying to adjust to the thought.
No sicknesses, no babies-on-the-way, just change. It could be good for I see the good that might result, but I feel safe where I am and really don't want to face the possibilities.
The Lord has prepped me. I look back over the past couple of months and see the whispers He's left in my ear.
Two weeks ago a friend faced similar changes. I sympathized and then said I'd pray, never imagining that I would be in the same place two weeks later.
I know the Lord has a plan; I trust Him. The path has gotten a little foggy today and I don't see the next step very clearly, but I know who is still in the lead.
On the new Chris Tomlin CD, Burning Lights, there is a song entitled Whom Shall I Fear. The chorus says,
"I know who goes before me, I know who stands behind.
The God of angel armies is always by my side."
With gusto I've sang that song driving the freeways with my girls in tow. I've sang it confidently. Today I sing it 'cause I need it. Just a little afraid. Could be good. Could be bad. Could be a mixture, but it doesn't matter, does it? If we remember who goes before us, we should not be afraid.
So I did the best thing I could think of doing...I crawled back under the covers and read a mystery novel.
Let someone else have the drama for a few hours. Prayer would be good too. ;)
If you would pray for me, I would appreciate it. I will fill you in on the details over the next few months, but I just can't share today.
Thanks so much!